Maybe your natural urge is messing with your head :) I mean; men were programmed to spread their seeds and create offspring. And no; it's not that uncommon. Some men have an inexplicable urge to procreate, even though they don't want a child. A part of the men that donate sperm do so from this urge and some never even get to see the child (or children) they've conceived, but they do find peace of mind in fulfilling this biological duty.
Another aspect could be you feel a conflict between part of you feeling ready to impregnate her, yet part of you knows very well that this is not the time/place/person to have a baby, which in it's turn creates emotions of anxiety. Leaving you in emotional turmoil. I've heard both men and women about this problem... A men I spoke with called it a secret longing that he denies to himself and succeeds to do so, but it does "pop up" with something as primal like sex.
Last but not least;
-perhaps it's just like any fantasy; something that gets us off, but we don't want to happen for real :)
-perhaps it makes sex dangerous and some people just get off on possible danger
-perhaps an emotion so powerful as being "mortified" does say something about how much subconsciously you could be associating sex and pregnancy (whether you'd like to or not).
You know yourself best to tell if either could be true to you.
Posted: 30 Sep 19:29