Well it's not easy out there. My husband had some legal troubles and were paying monthly fees for that. Because of what is on his record he cannot get the best paying jobs. Not to mention bills and the baby. Then you add my college tuition I am paying for since I am not receiving any financial aid. My husband is doing his very best to provide for me and our child. I don't want to go on and on about financial woes because it's not like were poor. We just can't afford anymore bills on top of what we already have.
As far as the "emotional controversy" I am referring to the battle I have withing myself everyday to just get over this and pretend like there is no real problem. I'm not as friendly as I used to be, because I don't get out of the house and socialize anymore. But after hearing what other people have to say about my situation it is becoming very real to me how important some medical treatment is.
I guess I am just a little bit stubborn. I feel as thought I can handle anything on my own and for most of my life that is the way I always was, but these days I am not nearly as strong minded as I used to be.
My husbands best friend actually has been diagnosed with agoraphobia. He was on bed rest for 2 years after having back surgery. We were talking the other day, comparing our anxieties. He told me that he had read somewhere that there was a study done on spinals and how they effect the brain. He didn't develop agoraphobia until after the back surgery. I didn't start having the same traits until after my epidural when Teegan was born. Maybe this could be why but who knows....
Posted: 06 Oct 19:44