Okay so I just got out of a relationship with a wonderful guy. He was my first boyfriend and basically my entire sexual history...for whatever reason I just havent felt the same since school started. My mom wouldnt let me out during the school week so I would see him maybe 1 time a week if I was lucky...so i think this is why. I mean how do you love someone you never see right?
Anyways before we started dating I had always been attracted to girls. Like I would see a girl and thin she is attractive. I was never really like OMFG that guys is fine I want him in me NOW! Like for instance I was watching we own the night, and I got turned on watching eva mendez fingering herself, and wound up rubbing myself off in the theater.
But then i met my ex, and I really wanted to go out with him, and to kiss me and stuff even though I had never been attracted to girls, I had always found this strange want for him to kiss me and stuff.
Well needless to say we took it slow since we were both pretty new to everything, but eventually we started fooling around. Usually he would have to intitiate it, since I was never like in the mood. but when I could feel him get hard through his pants, or I would unzip them and see it I would get wet. I loved to touch it, and for some reason when I knew he was going to shoot I couldnt help but watch it until it was done. He actually begged me to stop one night, because I kept playing with it, even when it was soft. IDK if it was a case of curiosity or perhaps the thought that I was pleasing him since I liked him to masterbate in front of me. But once it was away, it wasnt like oh Im all hot please finish me now...
I also liked having sex with him, and having him rub his penis against me, the sensation of him being inside me felt great, and after our first time, I actually intitiated fooling around, but just once.
I just dont understand. I mean I get turned on by seeing a sexy topless woman, or two girls kissing, but not by a buff guy, or a man and woman having sex. But yet my ex boyfriend would get me wet, and I could get turned on by looking at his penis. I just had a desire for woman, and a desire for him...but not other men...so yea
Sorry for a long post I jus figured honesty was the best way to get advice so yea...what do you guys think. Is it just bicurios, lesbian with a slight want for a penis or what...im just so confused.
Posted: 30 Sep 06:59