Hey everyone. Earlier today I saw an article I think here on the forum somewhere about a transsexual appearing in a nude shot in a European magazine. I looked at the article and saw the picture and then I became curious. I wanted to know if female to male sex change surgeries looked real or not so I looked up some pictures on a porn site that I used to go to and know is safe. Well, the pictures were of "shemales" and I totally wasn't expecting this but the pictures actually kind of turned me on. I felt so weird about it after looking at the pictures. I totally didn't expect to have that sort of reaction but I had no control over my feelings of arousal. I don't know what to feel now. I don't know if I should be ashamed or what. I mean, I feel kinda strange. I mean, I do respect transsexuals and those who choose to get some sort of sex change surgery done and all but I never expected to be turned on by pictures of that sort. Am I normal? I know that may sound like a strange question and I know the likely answer but I just don't "feel" normal now.
That said, I am bisexual so maybe that had something to do with it. :confused:
Spicygirl82
Posted: 30 Sep 07:16
NO DON'T BE ASHAMED.....I'm sure these WOMEN as they are after surgery would LOVE to be thought of in A LOVING & SENSUAL way.I'm a heterosexual/bi-curious 40 something woman and i find your curiosity perfectly NATURAL:):p;)
raunchy gal
Posted: 30 Sep 07:16
Take the persona out of the equation. Guys can be turned on by a mannequin with or without clothing. Same thing with a real body, regardless of the gender or how it is derived.
It's the body and form that turned you on, not the mind inside.
dancingdoc2
Posted: 30 Sep 07:17
It's nothing to be ashamed of, I think it's great! :)
The thing I'm a bit ashamed of is how my brain seems to get a bit confused, while looking at transsexuals... As if I'm accepting the person, yet still my brain keeps repeating: "does not compute!" I've known a hermaphrodite who decided (s)he didn't wanted to be male or female anymore. I didn't know him/her personally, but felt very sorry for how the world was treating this person... (S)he felt like (s)he was neither and both, which I could totally understand: why would it be obligated to make such decision? So (s)he wore both men and women clothing, just depending on the feeling of the day. But got puzzled every time going to a restroom, dressing/lockerroom, etc. It was either: EEEEE! A man with breasts don't belong with the men! Or: EEEEEE! A woman with a penis doesn't belong with the women! :(
Even talking about him/her is difficult, as I realize again now! It's really typical how the world is so divided in male/female. First thing we exclaim at birth is: it's a boy! or it's a girl! Once we become sexually active, the question is again about sexes. I heard this quote in a beautiful song once: "If I sleep with a girl, does that make me gay? If I sleep with a boy, does that make me straight? And if I sleep alone does that make me anything or nothing?"
Our language relies on the difference between sexes. Talking about "it" would be linguistically correct, yet feels so wrong because of the demeaning factor, if you catch my drift? Which is also typical: how can neuter grammar be demeaning? Why do we use the same term for the sterilization of an animal? It's like it means: stripped of it's nature. Is it really that important whatever dangles in between our legs??? Everyone is beautiful in their own imperfect way!
RedRoses
Posted: 30 Sep 07:17
I feel extremely awful. I have done something terrible against my religion and who I want to be. I watched something awful. I did not like it but I just watched it anyway. I watched some transsexual porn and some transsexual on a web cam. I feel so disgusted by it. I wish I have never done it. I don't know if I am straight, gay, or bi. I want to be straight. I have thought about girls and still do. However I am still bothered by my actions. It is killing me inside. I don't know what to think of myself anymore.
I watched gay porn that featured two guys in it many years ago. I was disgusted by it and never watched that type of porn again.
When I watch straight porn I never notice the guys in a sexual way. I say well here is this certain guy in a scene again but nothing sexual about it. I see the women sexually. I have never thought about being with a man.
When I watched the transsexual porn I was not attracted to the guys. When I saw the transsexuals I did not see anything particular I liked. I did not like their faces, legs, asses, etc. I have watched this type of porn more than once. I have jacked off to it. I did not like it and I would never have sex with a man nor a transsexual.
When I watch straight porn I think I am the guy who is fucking the chicks. When I watch transsexual porn I don't see myself as the guy in the film. I can't picture myself sucking a penis. The thought of it turns me off. I don't want to be fucked in the ass. I don't have any fantasies for men nor transsexuals.
I watch sports a lot and play sports with my friends. I never have been turn on by men when watching sports. I watch pro wrestling a lot. Most of the wrestlers are half naked but it does not turn me on.
What is happening to me? I am gay, bi, or just lost and confused. Could I being doing this because of a porn addiction?
RATED-RKOFRANKLIN
Posted: 30 Sep 07:23
BE COOL!!!!!!! You are not gay for watching trans porn. You are only gay, if you're gay, if that is the case. Or maybe you want to be a trans yourself. If no, then you might have been curious that's all. Stop watching porn and get some other hobbies.
You need to see a professional about these feeling because you are using some very strong words (extremely, disgusted, etc). You are a very confuse person about what you like and what you want.
Side note: I don't know of any religion that is okay with straight porn but not transsexual porn. Don't pick and chose when you what to be religious.
Side note 2: Don't ask questions that only you can answers. Are you gay? Yes, know your gay and you can watch all the Trans porn you like. (Sarcastic) Only you can answers this question and it okay not matter what you pick.
Side note 3: There are tooooo many contradictions in your posting. You jackoff to trans but don't have fantasies about trans. You don't like men but you could be gay? You watch a few trans porn but you think it’s a addiction?
When you are totally honest with yourself you will be about to watch whatever you want.
Cool
Posted: 30 Sep 07:24
