Great topic magda92!
I had very romanticized views of how sex should be... so planned on not rushing it / waiting for that special someone.
My first time was when I was around 18/19 with a girl I had been dating for about 4 months... right around christmas if memory serves me.
I remember having anxiety about performance - not wanting to orgasm too quickly and trying to make it amazing for her while having next to clue what I was doing... We had gone to 3rd base quite often, so were pretty comfortable with each other, which was great, but we didn't use a condom, so the fear of pregnancy while just starting Uni took away from it. We were also at her parent's house, so that fear of getting busted was also present, though it did add a little bit of excitement as well. It was also in the missionary position, which quite frankly, I don't think is the best for beginner due to how awkward the positioning and movement can be before you get the hang of it. (I'd recommend butterfly as a much better choice for men).
That said, I almost lost it a few years earlier while in high school in the back of my car at a park to a girl I just started dating because everyone else was doing it and didn't want to be "left behind"... plus some rumours were circulating about how I wasn't going to be able to keep up to her (she had more exp). Right as I was about to put it in, one of the street lamps overhead started to flicker, and I panicked thinking it was a cop's flashlight... My wood evaporated almost instantly, and there was no bringing it back. It was devastating at the time and the relationship didn't go much further due to my insecurities at the time, but in hind-sight, I'm glad it happened that way so that the first time would be more special.
Posted: 20 Apr 19:54